Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Aquarians n you!

This is just an imagination, resemblance to any character is purely coincidental..

*chuckles*, *side glances*, *restricted smiles*-- whats all this? well... we call it "Admissions" for colleges.New people, new groups, new place.I see shades of all colors walking beside me.Tall, short, fat,thin all people, everywhere.The Legal school welcomes you.We are assembled here to accomplish things...i look with suspicion accomplish?..n turn to my mom, what the hell?? i just gave my 12th, gave my law entrances what more to accomplish?...i need a break momma....i screak..

well, just listen you shall have ur squawking sessions later on...came from her side..slowly people come inside the alloted room for a group intro.No face is familiar, not even one.I see if i am blissed to catch any diaper buddy so that we could make plans for bunking sessions,and the chain of events that would come along with it.But apparently none at least till the reach of my eyes is there.

"chumma kellu"- a voice came from some random corner of the room, and i jus ignored it at the first instance,then my cerebral nerves tried hard to put my senses back saying"well my dear ur not in chennai or some place, here people don speak tamil".One of my five senses,my eyes frantically started searching for the voice and its owner.Then aftermath of admissions, a quick check to see if my name features in the hostel list, much to my surprise it did.So royally i moved my arse to my room, and waited impatiently for my clan mates.

We could not see our manushas here, my mom said skimming through my documents..Again few steps i could here, and we have avantika hariharan and family, and akriti goel's family. Ohh hi, we introduced each other.Simple nods, smiles and hand shakes by all folks.I barely looked at all the people.I just put my bag and my suitcase and took a stroll to see th college.IIT chennai looks likes this, my grandad.Apparently, in a tamil brahmin's family,its like a ritual to take the entire family for something like an admission too.You know your uncles are pass outs from IIT.To study in institutes like this, you should be blessed.But you see grandad, the college deserves students like me with grades ranging from 90 to 98 percent.So infact the college is blessed to have me ryt? i pause.I went to college by bus. We walked miles n kilometers ma, so use th given opportunity, life once gone will never come back- patented by my dad.Ever since i know words like" life","opportunity" i have been hearing this.

I hit my hostel, my parents were leaving.So 18 years they brought me up like th hutch dog, and they don expect me to even be emotional.But i could not, so i just washed my eyes with my own tears for few hours even after they left.So was th hariharan n th goel's family kids.Time is nine.Dinner time some one says in the corridor.I don want to go,but if i dont i cant jus sneak into the hostell kitchen and take the peanut butter or tooty fruty jellies like i do always at home.So i sighed and woke up to wash my face and get to the dinner hall.

Queue with a tumbler,plate,spoon.Rotti,dhal,kitchdi for today.I approach the counter, rotti- the elastic sheet, dhal-the yellow liquid,and kitchdi-some randomnly picked small jellies,i said it to myself.The getting to know each other just then started, so we all were introducing and reintroducing,bringing as many links as possible through various national wide competition references.Finally everything closed, i just made my bed and proceeded to hit the bed, and look forward for the first day in college.

The First night without wishing goodnight to parents, folks, sister,felt pathetic, but still i managed.Wished avantika and akriti night wishes and hit the bed.

to be continued...

Monday, November 30, 2009

One light speaks more:)

When i talk to her, i see the air freshen up,
the sky clearing its way out,
the butterflies dancing,
her tear drop heals the living beings,
the glare from her teeth, blinds all hearts,

her curls entangle me with love,
her smile melts all the hearts,
her ears hear the hearts of the others,
her pat on others extinguishes the evil in them,
her tongue wraps me with enlightenment,
her legs make ppl bend and seek her blessings,

My heart pounds, leaps and flies by
when she conquers my thoughts,
when she conquers my sanctum,
when she conquers my weakness,
My heart projects zillions of impulses

she has encroached and stomped my heart
and its bleeding the essence of oneness with her,
with the intense luminosity and reverberant ecstasy
when she in my frame of view,
i perspire out negativeness and
forget ferociousnes and hence beach and
sanitize my inner being and
will never be a visitant anymore..

that dream, that SHE :)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

who cares..

who cares which N school ppl join?

who cares what ppl think abt me even though i have not made into the top 2 N school

who cares which friend of mine joined which law school?

who cares whether i have luck or not?

who cares whether which N school gets max pay package?

who cares if i wud sit for my college placement or not?

who cares whether Nalsar has awsome infrastructure?

who cares whether Nlsiu came all india rank beating Nalsar?

who cares how much i know from Gre?

who cares if i am not selected for national moots this time?

trust me ..answers to these question are still to be answered..but i know the solution to all this lies when i really show up..the days are very close..time has come and the wheel doesnt spin one side,the coin doesn fall on the same side...here i am:)

lit up my little lamp
the time has come to crack
we are no more here to cramp
you tiny shinning glow
you are to put up a show
the path has become green
so no more u are here to lean
for all the effforts u took to glow
despite the harsh wind blows
you tiny little lamp u still can glow
lit my tiny little lamp to glow...
(self written poem[copyright reserved])

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Your always there for me!

You are always there for me...ah here u come you said...i was tired,even u were equally tired...you asked me about my day,then smiled at me...i din see it..but u did!!you were unconditionally there for me...you love me so much, just that u don have tym to say...u are busy,but u wud get a break,a break which is luxurious...
you raised me up so that i could climb the mountain...you made me lie on ur chest so that i could forget all sadness,i am strong now....i understand you...when i am low, u just pacify me by holding my hand and giving me a hug...you are unique...you are just you,you are good...you look amazing,....i have never told you all this but yes you are one...i am sure you would read this one day and get it...
I always want you to be there with me,and i want u to understand that no matter what happens,i will always be there to support you....i love you!


I saw him,he looked bright and clear
wondering how he could jus be like tht
he smiled and waved as i did
i could not control but to stare
i was moved

he turned,the look of him
ah gosh...cud not jus say
but it stayed right there
he followed,he moved forward
leaving me behind

then he came backwards leaving me in front
he din walk beside me...don know why
i thought of asking him,but never did!
he was always there for me
i was moved....

i could not touch,i cud feel
i was happy but sad too
i turned to see him he was not there
but he was actually there
i was moved....

the long road with no one
but he and i,i saw him on the
moon's reflection,he was right behind me
exactly like me,as clear as he cud
i was jus moved...

but i later found out tht it was
my very own shadow
i stood stunned,but still he looked
good anyways and i moved...
leaving him behind me forever..!

self written..

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

7:40 & 7:41

They were cute,as bright as stars
all cuddled them,happy to see their jewels
holding each others hands and moving swiftly
jewls of two different kinds,absolutely varied kinds
but pure and bright,they were

crossed wonderfull 18 steps with and without hurdles
thinking of it,brings a gosh feeling in her
but she is proud of it..
they fought,they screamed,they cried
they laughed,they played,they smiled
they were together all tym,
a thing tht rarely happens-their birthdays
as cherishing as they were

they parted into two different streams,
they liked it,but they missed it,
they din know to express,but they felt it in,
they understood each other even more,but they
cud not share as they were miles apart
as far as they were

they still love,they still fight,
they still cry,they still smile,
they still mock,they still miss,
what a blend,a blend of antonym
yeah,they were indeed ....
The true gems...!!!

7:40&7:41.......the tym tht i can never forget...love you....and wish we were together....

self written...